The prep has started! LM is schedule for a lip and nose revision on May 10 at CHLA. Now I need to keep my emotions in tact for him. This is his first surgery with his forever family. I remember the emotions I went thru with PT first surgery @ 7 week old. The are different this time. They are not any easier but different. I think what is making it different is my stress level is different this time. I am not worrying about having to go back to work. Even though I was on leave with PT, I was heading back in work a few week later. I can give LM my undivided attention.
Some things are the same. How will he do under anesthesia? How will he handle waking up after surgery? Then the biggie that get me ever time is : Is this truly necessary? I know it is but does not make it any easier!
I hate, let me say that again I hate to see my little ones in pain. I know I have to keep an eye on the pain meds but this is the hard part of surgery no matter how much pain meds you have there is still some pain they only dull it.
Closing thoughts ( More to help me)
Isaiah 43: 2 When you go through deep waters and great trouble, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown! When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up. The flames will not consume you.
Jeremiah 30:17 "I will restore you to health and heal your wounds," declares the Lord.
Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go."
Deuteronomy 31:8 The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.
Now I am off to make my checklist and get my surgery pack ready.
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